Silver Lining?

Finally the end of the Conference.
Probably still a little overwhelmed as i noe i'm not ready and (fortunately) not yet in the team to do all these really great stuffs.
Had alwiz been interested to do it but currently i think there's something else on hand that needs more attention. Probably when it had all stabilised, then it will be time.

I must admit, i am very different from the time when i began.
The journey had started. Was like a blank notebook, filling in pages by pages enthusiastically. Ideas, thoughts, processes, reflections. But now as i reflect, do i still fill in the pages? or do i flip back to the front pages, and go... there.. that's the page we are looking at. again. and remind ourselves, don't make the mistake again. Reason, quite simply, u are not a beginning teacher anymore.

No matter how much i want to start a new page, it gets torn off and lands itself in the wastepaper bin. As much as i tried to scribble some words, i get really tired. really breathless. really resistant. It's only recently, that i realised the rate im going, the notebook will be left with no pages, except those in the early years.

Someone said, how sad will it be if ur life is a story and it's blank?
Will it even be sadder if it doesn't even have anymore pages left?

Now we talk about creativity, how can we expect our kids to be when we restrict this, and that, and those? how do we expect them to think analytically if we keep helping them make decisions? Are we even doing any injustice by putting all their requests down and saying that all is good for them. Don't they at least get to decide what is good for them? Providing guidance is impt and necessary but not dictation.

Talk about experential learning and learning from mistakes.
The safety net must go somehow, but looking at things, it will never be gone. It had turned into something so superficial that it chokes anyone who tries to remove it. Anyway, not that i advocate that practitioners leave everything for the young ones to decide, but teens, come on, they don't like to be told what to do.

I'm seriously worried that the worst will happen.
But after what i've heard and seen about these 2 days, i felt, there's still some hope smongst all these adversities. Sometimes we have to walk out of it. Think out of the box. Do the unexpected and shock everyone.

As was mentioned:
CQ + PQ > IQ
Curiosity and Passion.
2 impt keys to every learner.
Overt emphasis on the opposite is prevalent nowadays.

As i look at some advocators present their papers, i can easily sense that curiosity to attempt, the passion to continue. I think it was a good chance for me to see all these positive faces who had emerged from all these. It's really not easy, and i applaud them for their courage and enthusiasm. On the other hand, there are also pple who were there for the sake of being there to present. Not commenting but there's just the difference.

There were implications, but there were inspirations.
There were doubts, but there were directions.
Questions never filled me that much ever before.
But i can be certain, there is still light.
For our future generation.