A Webbed Mess
Things happening everyday and really life had been really exciting and roller coaster-ing even though it had only been 2 days since term started.
Had been wanting to blog so much but then was just gagged. so gagged that after every paragraph i typed, i just highlight and delete with one go. and repeats. i donno... its a no-feeling feeling.
one.
reason was told briefly.
but seriously i have no feelings about it.
if so be it. let it be. its all a dream.
but i really do wish her well...
two.
another matter was told to me some days ago. Strangely, I was not rudely shock. I guess deep down my intuition had expected it all. i do understand the decision but i still hold a hope that things will happen and minds will change. seriously, i donno how i should react. part of me supports the decision as i understood the need and the courage to make that decision even, not even to the execution stage yet. another part of the worry-wart me starts to wonder and panic. what will happen after that. not me. but others.
but i really do wish him well...
three.
got to know about this matter in the evening. it's almost gonna be a decade and now what happened really make me wonder. how much time is needed for it. how much life and breathing is spent managing it. it probably is the moon as some frens had told me before these things happen frequently especially during a certain time of the year...
however, i really do wish her well....
four
a colleague told me about the fragility of the certificate.
it's afterall just a piece of paper. how many pple are really bounded by its existence. times have changed, we may think having not the certificate but true fidelity is needed in many light years to come. till our planet earth explodes to become dust and particles in the solar system. indeed times have changed. does love actually mean anything to anyone now?
Life is indeed a complicated matter.
a webbed mess that we are in.
forever trying to untangle knots that maybe meaningful/less to us.
in the end we may realise,
its all worrying for nothing.
Had been wanting to blog so much but then was just gagged. so gagged that after every paragraph i typed, i just highlight and delete with one go. and repeats. i donno... its a no-feeling feeling.
one.
reason was told briefly.
but seriously i have no feelings about it.
if so be it. let it be. its all a dream.
but i really do wish her well...
two.
another matter was told to me some days ago. Strangely, I was not rudely shock. I guess deep down my intuition had expected it all. i do understand the decision but i still hold a hope that things will happen and minds will change. seriously, i donno how i should react. part of me supports the decision as i understood the need and the courage to make that decision even, not even to the execution stage yet. another part of the worry-wart me starts to wonder and panic. what will happen after that. not me. but others.
but i really do wish him well...
three.
got to know about this matter in the evening. it's almost gonna be a decade and now what happened really make me wonder. how much time is needed for it. how much life and breathing is spent managing it. it probably is the moon as some frens had told me before these things happen frequently especially during a certain time of the year...
however, i really do wish her well....
four
a colleague told me about the fragility of the certificate.
it's afterall just a piece of paper. how many pple are really bounded by its existence. times have changed, we may think having not the certificate but true fidelity is needed in many light years to come. till our planet earth explodes to become dust and particles in the solar system. indeed times have changed. does love actually mean anything to anyone now?
Life is indeed a complicated matter.
a webbed mess that we are in.
forever trying to untangle knots that maybe meaningful/less to us.
in the end we may realise,
its all worrying for nothing.
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