sigH.

totally opened the floodgates tonight after some stuffs.
really donno. the feeling of guilt? betrayal? or what.
coming from pple whom are so dear to my heart.
i donno. really donno.

everything that happened before and after the watever frenzy made me not the person i used to be... i seriously am lost about things... why does it all have to affect me that much. sigh.

if really i have to make a decision if it gets through.
i will. even if things get really nasty.
really nasty.

for tonight i really felt down.
so darn darn down.
to the 19th level underground.

thanks to SM and DS.
i'm still sane.
i have to be strong.