Insomnia

Couldn't sleep.
Couldn't even tell whether it was the caffeine or the endless qns about the band.

I probably shouldn't have said anything to them on wednesday after DS walked out on them abruptly. Probably i should even have kept what G had advised me about T sectionals. Probably it was just me who can't keep my mouth shut about things.

I know DS too well that its not in his nature to tell them str8away when he's really angry. It's pretty rare that he does that at all, as he had a pretty high threshold for noise, at least not to walk out on it. If he really does so, and not burst out, he's really burning inside. If he does burst out, that's the end of the road. But i believe he will still go on. i hope.

Also i had known G so well that it's not him too to say his real thoughts. If he is a teacher like me, he will really scold them left right upside down, but i guess he felt that it was just not appropriate even though i had authorised him to stretch them whenever needed. i believed G had their interests in mind, started off wanting to help them improve their skills. i also believed that G knew them too well that he doesnt want to complicate things further by pushing them too much.

I don't think it will do the band any good if anything is kept from them. That's when i feel i had to step in, even when i don't feel like it. I shouldn't even be stepping in. Of course, everyone wants to hear it from the person who had the thoughts, but sometimes we have to accept the fact that there are people who doesnt want to speak their minds and use it with their body language. Sometimes its just that we didn't pick up their body language, that we need someone else to spell it out str8 into our faces. and that's what i did the other day.

And that probably caused commotions like why didn't he tell us str8.
reason as simple as explained above.
if it was that easy, i wouldnt even have to speak to all that day.