Devil says.

A senior had asked me to consider this option.
I appreciate this kindness and i feel kind of flattered with the fact that i've been really "lying-low", but...
The question is... do i want the change?
no doubt i had always been interested in it, but i don't love it that much to call it my passion.
The hours are equally long, probably longer and more demanding in some sense, will i be passionate about it and go on...
its a totally new aspect and i can't deny i was pretty tempted.
"it's not what i loved & i can't leave them."

LOV-ED... why did i add that ED.

They are two totally different worlds.
I know i will have better working partners there, but i know i will miss what i have. some disappointments here and there i had, but i loved the things i do and i loved the people with me.

LOV-ED... why did that ED come up again.

There are so few things we can do now. With everything of the ed sys against us. the financial concern. the stress and pressure part. the giving up part. the helplessness... the can't do anything to change irritant...watever...
BUT.. i will definitely miss what i have...

It's an attractive offer i must add.
BUT It's not as simple and clear cut as it seems.
BUT It's not hard too. Just have to choose.

The devil says, make the right choice girl.

Gawd... help.