Last Lap... Fight on!

I've not been feeling good physically, bogged down by the usual problem i have, not seriously bothered by it, but it does pull me down some bit. Felt that it didnt come at the correct time, when i could have been better and do more.

Like i was kneeling down and almost curling up on the hall floors of MJC yesterday afternoon, when it came and go, feeling cold sweat breaking out. I knew DS was not in a good mood, everyone isn't and i couldn't be in the best state to do anything. Luckily when we were going off, it went off for a while, at least i didnt have to be helped out of the hall.

Had expected the 'detrimental' effects after the exchange.
warned GY about the possible 'backfires' of this trip, but i guessed she herself was shakened by what had happened there... There's still Claud... i knew she had gone through a tough afternoon about her BClar and many things... so i really really don't blame them at all even if there's nothing to be done about the after-effects too. And so, the rest of the band. i hope they are affected (+vely) by the exchange. There's probably some logic or reason why it happened this way.

But, after the whole event, it was still nagging so much.
After reading the blogs of everyone... big and small... i just felt lousy.
Was i around with them when it all happened? I probably was, but i was mentally gone.
Was it solely the pain? or was it just lethargy getting into me?
Ms Luo, where have u gone to?
(When u should be there)

I admit, on Friday evening, i was feeling so lousy at everything, i just needed a break. I left quietly, after seeing DS arrived, and the first round of sunrise. Left msgs for relevant people who may need to takeover some looking over for the night. This is about the first time in 2 years i did this. No matter what events i have, unless i am overseas, i will alwiz try to come back and see what they need. as i noe, besides DS, there's no one else seriously "around".

So it's left with one week.
Was not able to sleep well last night with intermittent waking-ups (by i don't know what). It was some kind of helplessness that i can't seem to piece. The last week, the last 3/4 practices, i really don't know.

I feel really helpless.

I seldom/rarely/almost never do this.
Since i was there with my family as my brother is going overseas again this coming saturday, and while waiting for dad to come back from the carpark. I tried my luck on the what-do-u-call-that-in-english, some way of communicating with guanyin niang niang.

So the first one came out i remember was no. 55.
It was not the one, as the "red kidneys" suggested.
So the second one came out. no. 32.
this time the kidneys said yes.


前程杳
Objects viewed from a distance (the future)is not clear.
定无疑
Do not worry.
一朝良匠分明剖
A skilled Jeweller will polish it after unearthing it.
始觉安然碧玉朗
Presenting the beauty of the jade that is hidden in the rocks.

解曰 Interpretation
宝在石中
Within Rocks, there are blessings.
异人少知
Few knew this.
直待分明
Only when one fully understand the problem,
尽可施为
then it is safe to go on.

古人
刘备 求贤

未宫 Prediction此卦剖石见
玉之象凡事
着力成功也
Whatever it is, put in the best effort and success will be ours.

Well, i know it doesn't tell us anything but it's amazing how apt it was.
When i read it i was like ... OK... in the end it's just a simple message:

U will reap what U sowed

BUT i do really believe.
The jade in my kids is going to be recognised.
That is, if they want to.

AND i want to believe.
They really want it to happen too.
Religions aside,
It's all up to us now, YJBand.
WE MUST NOT GIVE UP NOW.
FIGHT.THE LAST LAP.
WE WILL BE THERE.